the longing deep down (abdominal portal)

Lyrics

belonging deep down inside is longing, is longing, is longing, is to be, i too would rather run, bound, cactus head to cactus head, stimulating laps flung wide, the distance well rounded, a working circle, all of our adjacent points equally distant from, the center, fulcrum self, it's fruit and its pit so deep, the whole current of being rises through it, there between your crotch and belly button, lonely river bottom, longing to be entertained, stimulating laps flung wide, wait, wait. before you run cactus, wait, wait. wait. just. say, say, please, with your deep dimension close, say which is worse, the longing to arrive there, or the terror of approach?, but maybe, someday, try, mid-slosh through intermittent voids, try standing long enough to toe the still beneath, and dare an inward leap, cupping your feet around that looming orb below, glowing with the shape of real things standed, other murky stones enlighten too, to guide you, for deep down there is no promise, only longing but deep down the, longing promises to be your own, longing deep down inside, if longing, if longing, if longing, is to be, longing deep down inside, is fucking hard, it's fucking hard, it's fucking hard, to be longing, deep down inside, is longing, is longing, is longing, is to be, longing deep down inside is, fucking hard, it's fucking hard, it's fucking hard, to be, it is fucking hard to be longing, and at the same time feel your own belonging, where it's real, deep down, dep down, deep, down