my grandma's basement

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, my grandmas basement, felt like there was no escaping, some days felt suicidal, i was scared i would never make it, i got problems nigga, i got issues bitch, i don't want to live no more, im'ma let this pistol spit, give me a therapist, that know magic tricks, prescribe me something, nigga change my life, i need happiness, sunshine, darkness that's all i see, i drank away my pain and popped a few pills, i can't wait to fall, asleep, damn i think death is calling me, wake up and i'm still here, like fuck i'm too scared to die, these pills and this vodka making me feel weird, i don't hang around like i used to, paranoid that im'a lose her, i'm scared of what my bitch think, i know any day i might lose her, too unstable to raise a kid, what the fuck holy shit!, i just came to this realization, its been nine months i just noticed it, this must be a nightmare, pinch myself, somebody awake him, i open my eyes and i wake, and i'm still right here in my grandmas basement, noooo!, my gran'ma basement, yeah nigga my gran'ma basement, my gran'ma basement, yeah nigga my gran'ma basement, some days i felt so scared i wouldn't make it, some days i felt so scared i wouldn't make it, yeah outta' my gran'ma basement, yeah nigga my gran'ma basement, at night i can't go to sleep, i feel like someone's stabbing me, inside of my fucking heart, just like clock work this pain grows gradually, actually i still have a little bit of hope, maneuvering the anguish and shit i wrote, i ain't got patience the way i'm dope, give a nigga one shot they like, no!, now its back to my grandmas basement, with all this anger and this frustration, stress can't be complacent, there he go again getting wasted, pacing around his room so anxious, wish i had a space ship, 'bout to go ape-shit, how much more can a nigga like me take it, before a mother fucker go and cave in ahhh!, fuck this rap shit, it ain't happening quick enough, my homies say i shouldn't give it up, but honestly i don't give a fuck, my girl bitching 'bout cash nigga, i'm strapped down to my last nigga, my baby hungry and need new clothes, and i swear they grow so fast nigga, these nine to fives don't pay enough, i'm about to hit the bank and go spray it up, i've got to get the fuck out this basement, these dreams and hopes ain't waiting up, this must be a nightmare, pinch myself, somebody awake him, i open my eyes and i wake, and i'm still right here in my grandmas basement, noooo!, i'm on the edge, fucked up in the head, i don't know who i am no mo', i lost faith in religion, god please give me just one anticdote, i plan to blow, but i panic so much these days i can't see straight, we can't relate, cause i'm losing it and out of my rocker, don't know what to do with it, this music ain't lucrative, papa keep talkin that go back to school, bitch you sounding so ludicrous, stuck on that stupid shit, i should be thankful while laying in the basement, instead of the pavement, my brain is just aching, my city they sleeping, they hating, but fuck 'em i eat 'em, i'm packing my shit up this evening, i can't turn back, fuck that, shit, damn it i'm leaving, got to get out of here find my way, my sanity's slipping, im'ma go crazy, got to make moves, what's it goin' take me, i'm stuck on my own, no one saves me, so what you gonna do when there's no where to go, and the world seems cold, and the pain keep aching, you finally made it, it's your worst nightmare when you lose, and you got to go back to the basement, noooo!,