maintain course

Lyrics

i saw you drift away i watched you go the wrong direction, i tried reaching out somewhere, but we lost connection, loss of words but i finally got the courage, been a mess and this depression really getting on my nerves, guess it could be worse, time to get my act together, i really hate that all the pain makes the rapping better, in a rut, what the fuck, spill my drink, spill my guts, i've been stuck, and its ugh what the fuck, they be looking at me crazy when they stare at me, i learned a guarantee ain't even a guarantee, i lost my mind over the summer temporarily, they said it gets better apparently. yeah right, but i'm aight though i don't need a pity party, i understand that you really sorry, but really sorry ain't gonna really help so don't get me started, i pour my heart and soul don't compare me to any artist, that's any artist, i've been down and out, i ain't ever counted out, thoughts spinning circles in my head like a roundabout, upset cause i wasn't up next, relationships ruined i'm obsessed with success, got my back against the wall, back against it all, haven't heard from you in months i ain't flattered that you called, saying that i changed nah i naturally evolved, that's some shit you'd understand if you were actually involved, receiving criticism, a ton of it, learning to juggle it, i miss doing shit for the fun of it, and i ain't in denial but it's hard to crack a smile, when the years feel like months and the bills start to pile, momma still gone working minimum wage, gotta do something quick i'm at a critical stage, but, i ain't copping out, not until my coffins out, anyone who standing in the way i'ma chop em down, i'ma chop em down, anyone who standing in the way i'ma chop em down, what's the plan again, tell me what's the plan again, i'm so numb it's been hard for me to channel in, i'm feeling manic like everyone is a mannequin, and they don't even blink while i'm panicking, i feel you boy i been through it, i've seen my house flood with alcohol and deeply get ruined, i've seen some shit i wouldn't even tell a therapist, i remember being seven with my parents like cut it out that's embarrassing, like god damn how the fuck it get like this, am i the only kid in class who really live like this, couldn't kill you to at least try, if i just smile, keep quiet then i'll sneak by, like nothing's wrong, i watched the evils destroy us, when you the captain of the ship it's all a part of the voyage, it's like you gave your all and it's still failure, i learned a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor, cause, even when it's pouring i ain't letting waves rock the boat, pops came to america i'm blessed the man got off the boat, promise i'ma blow while these motherfuckers talk the most, i don't need help so don't toss the rope, really think it's funny that dummies all advantaged, act like opportunities ain't ever gonna vanish, living in a bubble, that's asking for some trouble, man i learned to eat the dirt and appreciate the struggle, i been going through the hustle since before i even knew what it meant, i wouldn't change shit homie i would do it again, that's the formula i figured out that's proven to win, we take what mother nature gives and just move with the wind, and maintain course