faded

Lyrics

where the hell have i gone to, why's it got to be so motherfucking hard for me to call you, staying up late trying to get it all straight, every minute i've wasted, you were probably thinking i don't want to, that ain't the case, 15 years and that ain't the case, bad as it tastes, i'm the one to blame for putting up all the walls and demanding the space, and i just can't take it these days, so far out, want to bring it home but i don't know how, yeah man i don't know how, family could be something i don't know 'bout, and i pushed you that far cause i got scared, would've been hell but i could've said prayers, should've been there, and it's not okay, that your name is one thing i don't know how to say, faded, looking for the words that i could use to get to you, don't know how to say it, faded, hopefully it's getting through, cause everything is faded, looking for the words, i don't know how to say it, faded, hopefully it's getting through, because everything is, faded, where the hell did you go to, why'd you make it so motherfucking impossible to go through, running on fumes, trying to follow your tune, we were running around in circles, to the point that it was dangerous to know you, i could've reached out, 15 years and i should've reached out, but i couldn't find the person i was looking for, even if i did i was scared that you would have been underneath in the ground, and i ran from that, ran from that, too damn scared to take a chance with that, so the bogs got packed, blood got cold, names got changed and your kids got grown, grown, looking at the phone with a broken heart, trying to keep a piece of what fell apart, dark night and it's not okay, that your names one thing that i don't know how to say, faded, looking for the words that i could use to get to you, don't know how to say it, faded, hopefully it's getting through, cause everything is faded, looking for the words, i don't know how to say it, faded, hopefully it's getting through, because everything is, faded