build a bridge and jump off it

Lyrics

lonely and restless on the coldest of nights, with these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down. i'm only fooling everyone else, so that everyone else turns their back, turns their back on me. so let go of these feelings that i'm keeping inside. i'll hold on cause i'm feeling like i'm barely alive. lay back as this pain takes over me. broke down cause my head is spinning out of control. nineteen years and i got nothing to show. we're only getting older now. this pain seems forgotten, but inside i'm rotting, i'm rotting, thinking of all this time, left to waste, then die. the only thing i know for sure, is i don't care anymore. and when i'm gone, well, i hope you have the strength to move on. angry, but i'm told to not complain. reckless, but i'm better off this way. this is not what i want, but i'll just bite my tongue. now i'm hungry but i'm too tired to eat. tired but i'm too hungry to sleep. we're only getting older now. this pain seems forgotten, but inside i'm rotting, i'm rotting, thinking of all this time, left to waste, then die. the only thing i know for sure, is i don't care anymore. and it hurts, save me cause i'm drowning, give me more time like it, people keep on counting, it feels like i'm blinded now, as they shut me out, but i'm trying to see, please make this stop, this pain seems forgotten, but inside i'm rotting, i'm rotting, thinking of all this time, left to waste, then die. i'm not going to know what i'm doing here, so why can't you give me a sign?, so hold your breath now, swimming in an ocean of fear, my last regret is never knowing why i'm here.