beauty of breathing

Lyrics

sometimes i wanna take the car out on the road, flip it into park and smash myself, into a million little pieces, i'm tired of knowing what about myself is wrong, but never mustering up the control, to really try and change it, i walk outside and people say, "hey!", and sometimes i just wanna say, "hey! go away! go away!", so i guess i better stay inside, i heard that if you just sit on a chair and think, of focusing your nervous energy, on the beauty of breathing, you could live a life on real tranquility, but i just thought of every stupid thing, that's been keeping me from sleeping, i close my eyes and it won't go away, i plug my ears but they're ringing out, "hey! hey! hey!", it keeps me from believing, that maybe someday the thing will work, maybe i won't feel like a jerk, maybe the words i say will stop coming out weighted, maybe some day i'll wanna breath, and maybe the people that i meet, won't lead to a certain future where, i'm betrayed and, i'm so jaded yeah, i'm so jaded, and that's why i'm so fucking sad