(and the chorus sang) a dead refrain

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skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains move in my path, the streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth, my veins are anchored in this city - i am defeated by this lack of conviction, i am crushed - by 800 miles - eyes widened in self loathing, when the fucking dirt proves stronger, than the most pure emotion that i've ever fucking had, so what is left in life - but my destruction?, why do my lungs still gasp - when i no longer breathe for you?, where is the truth in my existence - when i have been cut off from, your tender fingertips - all that i've known falls down around me, every twisting tree and dead end street reminding me of you, taking me back a year, my life crawls on without you - amongst the endless snowing sheets, disheartening moments of salvation come to me only when i am asleep, i no longer stomach the denial - hiding the weakness of my being. the day to day has been a slow blur since you left, only forgiveness sets me free free, the bridges - collapsing - hillsides are growing fast, the pavement - is shifting - quicksand controls my will, i question life and its true meaning, i am defeated by this feebleness of will, frenzied thoughts arrest my mind, as i descend towards my eminent destruction, the only thing i can rely on - when i lie even to myself, skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains are closing in my path, the streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth, my veins are anchored in this city, i am defeated by this lack of conviction, am i already dead? i proceed hollow - unloved, i am our burnt out memory - self muutilation is my mainstay, tear me away - from the pictures of your face, pry my eyes from your written word, tear me away - from the bondage of regret, convince me that i am alive, this is the end - the end of everything, all i held dear - has slipped from my grasp, this is the end - the end of everything, all whom i've loved - are fucking memories, this is the end - the end of everything, as i am ripe - for this demise, this is the end - this is the end of everything, i kneel - godless and beaten, i long for moments when my eyes aren't blinded by emptiness.