a song for xx

Lyrics

, doushite naite iru no, doushite mayotte ru no, doushite tachidomaru no, nee oshiete. itsu kara otona ni naru, itsu made kodomo de ii no, doko kara hashitte kite, nee doko made hashiru no, ibasho ga nakatta mitsukara nakatta, mirai ni wa kitai dekiru no ka wakarazu ni, itsu mo tsuyoi ko da ne tte iware tsuzuketeta, nakanaide erai ne tte homeraretari shite ita yo, sonna kotoba hitotsu mo nozonde nakatta, dakara wakaranai furi wo shite ita, doushite waratte ru no, doushite soba ni iru no, doushite hanareteku no, nee oshiete. itsu kara tsuyoku natta, itsu kara yowasa kanjita, itsu made matte ireba, wakariaeru hi ga kuru, mou hi ga noboru ne sorosoro ikanakya, itsu made mo onaji tokoro ni wa irarenai, hito o shinjiru koto tte itsu ka ura kirare, hanetsukerareru koto to onaji to omotte ita yo, ano koro sonna chikara doko ni mo nakatta, kitto ironna koto shirisugiteta, itsu mo tsuyoi ko da ne tte iware tsuzuketeta, nakanaide erai ne tte homeraretari shite ita yo, sonna fuu ni mawari ga ieba iu hodo ni, warau koto sae kutsuu ni natteta, hitori kiri de umarete hitori kiri de ikite iku, kitto sonna mainichi ga atarimae to omotteta, doushiteQi iteiruno doushiteMi tsuteruno, doushiteLi chiZhi maruno neeJiao ete, itsukaraDa Ren ninaru itsumadeZi Gong deiino, dokokaraZou tsutekite needokomadeZou runo, Ju Chang Suo ganakatsuta Jian tsukaranakatsuta Wei Lai nihaQi Dai Chu Lai runokaFen karazuni, itsumoQiang iZi danetsuteYan wareSok keta Qi kanaideWei inetsuteBao meraretarishiteitayo, sonnaYan Xie hitotsumoWang ndenakatsuta dakaraJie ranaihuriwoshiteita, doushiteXiao tsuteruno doushitesobaniiruno, doushiteLi retekuno neeJiao ete, itsukaraQiang kunatsuta itsukaraRuo saGan zita, itsumadeDai tsuteireba Jie riHe eruRi gaLai ru, mouYang gaSheng rune sorosoroikanakiya, itsumademoTong ziSuo ha irarenai, Ren woXin ziruShi tsuteitsukaLi Qie rare hanetsukerareruShi toTong zitoSi tsuteitayo, anoQing sonnaLi dokonimonakatsuta kitsutoSe nnakotoZhi riGuo giteta, itsumoQiang iZi danetsuteYan wareSok keteta Qi kanaideWei inetsuteBao meraretarishiteitayo, sonnaFeng niZhou rigaYan ebaiuCheng ni Xiao ukotosaeKu Tong ninatsuteta, Yi Ren kirideSheng marete Yi Ren kirideSheng kiteXing ku, kitsutosonnaMei Ri ga Dang tariQian toSi tsuteta, why are you crying?, why are you wavering?, why have you stopped?, please, tell me. when do i be an adult?, how long can i stay to be a child?, where did you come from?, and where are you going to?, i had no place, i couldn't find any place, i wasn't sure if i could hope for the future, "always a strong kid" people said, "it's an honour that you never cry" people praised me and such, i didn't want a single one of those words, that's why i pretended not to understand, why are you smiling?, why are you next to me?, why do you go away from me?, please, tell me. since when was i strong?, since when did i feel so weak?, how long will i have to wait, until the day we understand each other?, the sun is rising already, i've got to go. i cannot stay at the same place forever, i thought that "believing in people" and "betrayed, and turned down" meant the same thing, back then, you didn't have any strength like that, maybe, i knew too much, "always a strong kid" people said, "it's an honour that you never cry" people praised me and such, as my surrounding people have said those lines, smiling was becoming painful, born alone and living alone, i thought the days like that were common.